She knew something was wrong when he stopped bringing her flowers as a surprise, or coffee in bed or wanted an impromptu date to the grocery store with a milkshake after. Those small things, like asking how she was, holding her hand, even a kiss goodnight  ceased and she noticed. She even used her words, spoke... Continue Reading →

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I can hear the neighbors Stomping like wild horses Over my head and it's seems so simple Just not a hard concept But man apparently these people forgot They live in apartments, like the ones under their elephantine feet Things are not rosy They aren't fantastic and no Please don't ask me to talk It's... Continue Reading →

I'm sitting here In the dark With my head Under the covers And toes exposed Watching a movie With the earbuds in The kind where everybody screams Eating cheese like a weirdo And I can't help think That it'd be more fun with company ©MelanieMcCurdie

I know what overwhelmed feels like ... It's personalised torture straight from the brain You can't breathe and everything is too close Then it’s too hot – then cold – then hot Sometimes, hands shake and bones creak Your stomach twists and turns along with your heart You don’t want to eat or drink because... Continue Reading →

I truly think that the community of man, is not meant to be awake so much We aren’t nocturnal Not by nature or design We are not bats nor bears, so we don’t hibernate. Except by choice or through a divine act; call it a interjection of benevolence from some derelict deity ©MelanieMcCurdie2018    ... Continue Reading →

I went outside again today It was very bright and loud There was fucking snow everywhere but The sun was all sunny MAKE UP YOUR MIND!! All this as the doors to that Wanna be Hoth out there Come closer and closer It caused my chest to freeze up And I started to sweat Because... Continue Reading →

I feel as though we live in a world full of false faces We are forced to wear masks, act is life is hunky dory, She wears a smile so all is sunshine and daisies It's a joke with no punchline. Nobody wants to look past their proboscis and Past the mirror in their eyes... Continue Reading →

Youth's graceful ballet Supple, kept alive, so often, so quietly It fades, as prancing ponies do It gets wiped away by wrinkles and silver linings And like footprints in the sand We begin life again, older These shrouded smiles Some trapped in memories Rather than photographs in albums Are the faces of ghosts Found in... Continue Reading →

Gotta Light?

The flame lights up the shadow thrown by his rakishly cocked fedora as he lights his cigarette with the stylishly dated trench coat firmly belted, the collar up in back “Here’s looking at you schweetheart” He says in a very bad Bogey imitation And I smile, a little giving an eyeroll and shaking my head... Continue Reading →

Maybe I do think Hell is full and maybe, just maybe, I know for a fact that devils roam among us. Maybe I found one. Maybe I know one; and maybe he laughs like sin is a flight of fancy while he watches from his solicitous shadows. Enticing, that daemon, he ignites a barely controlled... Continue Reading →

Too much. You are too much. You're a mother now; you can't act that way. Can't you tone it down? Act your age please Be an adult! Gods woman, You are just too much - Too much of what? Too much of a human who loves life? Too real and raw for people to deal?... Continue Reading →

I am indeed the best butt of some inside joke snicker, sure, cos it seems legit to you to do it but Just think a minute - tick tock tick tick tick - What if it were you? Huh, boo? What to do? Easy to pretend, ignore, deny deny deny But try to see it, iook through my... Continue Reading →

The Back-burner Yawp You know, All this magnificent mess before you, Beauty by My Eyes Bloody Well Ache... Remember me? That brilliant bitch that resembles who I was? It's tough on me too It's hard on ME, too Did you realise, that I'm getting hit from all sides? Forever explaining and justifying Swallowing my hurt... Continue Reading →

Why don’t I believe in God? That, my friend, is a loaded question and the bullets are defined and honed to offend, no matter what my response   But since you asked, and remember, this is my opinion, not yours - I think the fundamental lessons that we learn from birth, that unbidden and undefined... Continue Reading →

I could climb the stairs again and again  yes I know that - I do know that  its the accurate  definition of  insanity, but - but what if it was  just as difficult  to stand in one place staring at the door  for eternity never knowing that  those stairs laying there beyond the doorway lead upwards... Continue Reading →

they said watch the horizon

up and down … up and down … up the swells make my head explode my heart aches in sympathy for my stomach and my ears look for the horizon there is no shore out there only water, and the - burning alive, want water but there is none to be had surrounded by it... Continue Reading →

I used to overflow Sitting on a sofa Chesterfield Couch, whatever. Thighs spilled over edges Although not a lot And my gut filled my lap More than the kids ever did Shortness of breath from walking Down the street was more common Than breathlessness for any other reason Today I sat in the same place... Continue Reading →

I was a good and faithful daughter. I paid my tithe and I paid my time and I paid my dues I payed for my sins and prayed for my soul prayed for forgiveness for sins I hadn't committed yet All because my ancestors grandparents, my parents, did because a man in a robe told... Continue Reading →

i'm not what i appear i wish that i were able to be strong or confident or assured of myself truth is that in intimate gatherings in smaller spaces and darker places the likelihood of a typical initial response is relatively high due to social programming however, the effort expended to maintain in this manner... Continue Reading →

Tomorrow is cutting day. Yup! I'm going under the knife! ... Admittedly, I'm a dight nervous about some legalised lunatic armed with nasty ass tools and enough meds to knock Godzilla into the next dimension being anywhere near my nearly perfect physique.  That was snarkasm, by  the way,   There's nothing perfect about this physique and... Continue Reading →

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