It’s a sleepless struggle

I’m tired, and I cannot do more than pace, the bed calls me, but all I’m able to do is walk in agony, battle-sore from the war in my heart Being awake and lonely, alone in a place I hardly recognise away from the one who knows me best The pain makes me vulnerable, especially... Continue Reading →

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The burden of truth Proof, whatever you call it It's that temptation to burn Scald your mind with scales It's a weighted feather A sip of gasoline dressed up as cognac They tell you to drink it all down One shot wonder, and you do While the world in your head, Groans, bemoans that same... Continue Reading →

She says her name is Munday, blushing on the edge of shy, With her amber highlights flushed, she nearly glows in the ambiance. Gently she lays in my hands As though she were made for them, and maybe she is. How she is loved, Monday quivers,  breathlessly. It sounds like scores of Seraphim She quivers, Just like... Continue Reading →

Youth's graceful ballet Supple, kept alive, so often, so quietly It fades, as prancing ponies do It gets wiped away by wrinkles and silver linings And like footprints in the sand We begin life again, older These shrouded smiles Some trapped in memories Rather than photographs in albums Are the faces of ghosts Found in... Continue Reading →

Gotta Light?

The flame lights up the shadow thrown by his rakishly cocked fedora as he lights his cigarette with the stylishly dated trench coat firmly belted, the collar up in back “Here’s looking at you schweetheart” He says in a very bad Bogey imitation And I smile, a little giving an eyeroll and shaking my head... Continue Reading →

2017 has been a difficult, amazing and strange year for most of us, full of losses and finds, sadness and surprise, horror and in my case, a tonne of happiness.   For me personally, it was especially difficult and also delightful.  After 18 years of marriage and two amazing children, my marriage fell apart despite of... Continue Reading →

I knew we were forever on that late January night when you carved our initials into the stained bark, in the dark at the base of the Hangin’ Tree. It sealed a pact and a promise that I gave freely as you came to me dressed in the flesh of the one I adored, at the time. An... Continue Reading →

Maybe I do think Hell is full and maybe, just maybe, I know for a fact that devils roam among us. Maybe I found one. Maybe I know one; and maybe he laughs like sin is a flight of fancy while he watches from his solicitous shadows. Enticing, that daemon, he ignites a barely controlled... Continue Reading →

Angel is a lone woman in an apartment that resembles a padded cell in an asylum, and the only friend she has in the world is a man named Calvin Moon, who happens upon her and a live internet feed while searching for entertainment. To Calvin’s surprise, he finds just that. The hitch is that... Continue Reading →

Too much. You are too much. You're a mother now; you can't act that way. Can't you tone it down? Act your age please Be an adult! Gods woman, You are just too much - Too much of what? Too much of a human who loves life? Too real and raw for people to deal?... Continue Reading →

I am very tired My body runs on caffeine and good will A little duct tape just here for lift    In my head is a very overwhelmed Lonely for her Love woman Running worries like numbers 123, 864 tabs running 24/7 365   I'd kill for a little rest and maybe Some peace of heart,... Continue Reading →

I am indeed the best butt of some inside joke  snicker, sure, cos it seems legit to you to do it but  Just think a minute - tick tock tick tick tick - What if it were you? Huh, boo? What to do? Easy to pretend, ignore, deny deny deny But try to see it, iook through my... Continue Reading →

The Back-burner Yawp You know, All this magnificent mess before you, Beauty by My Eyes Bloody Well Ache... Remember me? That brilliant bitch that resembles who I was?   It's tough on me too It's hard on ME, too Did you realise, that I'm getting hit from all sides? Forever explaining and justifying Swallowing my... Continue Reading →

Judge and Hangman’s Jury

Listen - Don’t talk to me like you know. You don’t know anything, not about me, not about my life. And. Nothing. About. Then. Don’t beg me to speak and then admonish my tale by asking inane and stupid questions, those whose answers still terrify me. Still, you claim you understand in a manner most... Continue Reading →

Why don’t I believe in God? That, my friend, is a loaded question and the bullets are defined and honed to offend, no matter what my response   But since you asked, and remember, this is my opinion, not yours - I think the fundamental lessons that we learn from birth, that unbidden and undefined... Continue Reading →

Reaper’s Enchantment

For years it glittered The golden ring on her finger A well-worn symbol of her love and devotion In happier moments she wore it with pride, content in her emotional inertia Glad to have a warm body to cuddle up with Sometimes felt like a handcuff or a cage without bars on the long lonely... Continue Reading →

I could climb the stairs again and again  yes I know that - I do know that  its the accurate  definition of  insanity, but - but what if it was  just as difficult  to stand in one place staring at the door  for eternity never knowing that  those stairs laying there beyond the doorway lead upwards... Continue Reading →

Just keep breathing I'm trying but Wheezing whining crying alone In the dark The elephant It's on my chest And it's giving delighted gifts; (huge butt wiggles) While I still try furiously futilely fight The constant war Between the lines Belief and faith Someone else's Views of what is Right or always wrong. But Gods... Continue Reading →

Watch the Garden Grow

I bury it deep There, in the backyard by the smallish graves of all of our pets - The poor things, they're missed • I bury it deep Lay in the decay pitiful corpses In the lighter dark one ray of sunshine That reaches this place • I bury it deep Next to the bodies, where... Continue Reading →

Edge of your seat folks! More like edge of the bed Live screaming Live streaming tears Talk about true horror It's so loud Too loud Round and round Only the hammers of hell drown They fade out the noise Stop beating yourself! but how? How when your brain hates you Dredging up an old fleshy... Continue Reading →

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